Thus says the LORD:Remember not the events of the past,the things of long ago consider not;see, I am doing something new! - Is.43:18-19This verse is from the first reading at Mass today. It's my favorite line from all of today's readings which are about forgiveness of sin. The Gospel is about the paralytic's friends lowering him through the roof.
Yesterday I went to confession. A monthly, humility check. In the afternoon I was even thinking of all the reasons why I didn't have time to go. The enemy is often using that tactic to keep me away from good things.
So I did go, and of course it was great. But it wasn't great in this "big bang" sort of way. It never is.
We're the ones that are all dramatic about our sin. God isn't.
I'm realizing more and more that's who He is. With God, everything is black and white.
"Okay, you sinned. Ask my forgiveness in the Sacrament of Confession, be truly sorry, and that's it. It's gone."
But we want to make a big deal about it. We can't let go. We keep looking back at the sin and our past instead of ahead at the One we're following. And obviously, since we're looking behind us (who walks that way?) we stumble, and veer off the straight and narrow.
I've had enough dramatic people in my life that having a God who's not that way is so, super attractive.
Since He's so big - you know - all infinite and such . . . we expect Him to come with the all the bells and whistles. And so did the people around Him when He walked the earth. But this is the guy born in a stable on a dark, cold, quiet night.
If God is that way, well I want to imitate Him . . . I want to be that way too, I want to listen to the quiet whispering and learn. He's doing something new in my life - and to think I could miss it if I were looking at my past, dramatically obsessing over all the ways I haven't been perfect.
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